I just read your post and while I’m selfishly going to be missing our interactions, I will absolutely pray for you and lift you up. I commend your bravery as I know a lot of people who have struggled with this. I myself had to decide how much time and effort I am willing to spend on submitting, prepping, etc., and I know it’s so easy to get sucked into too much. I pray that your journey will be like mine and that you’ll find the balance and achieve the one greatest gift God shed light on through this entire process… that I’m creating for ME and for my family. I am able to provide for them and I’m also able to do that from home and it’s a huge blessing.
When we are passionate about something, it can definitely become a more powerful driving force than we want it to. I see a lot pf people doing this and I do wonder how they’re keeping p w/ family, friends, etc., but I try not to judge. All I know is that I pray every day that God uses me the way I was created for and although I fail daily, I feel good about where I am, so I will absolutely pray the same for you! You are a beautiful, talented, passionate woman and I love the verse from Ecclesiastes because it’s so true. Your hiatus may just be a season as well until you get it figured out. if that is the case, I know your friends will be waiting with open arms. if not, I still thank God for bringing you to our lives for the short amount of time as I’ve been inspired by you! Love and hugs,
I have been a stay-at-home mom for the past 18 months. As I left my great career, I was so excited to be able to stay home with my 3 girls and I had so many awesome things I was planning to teach and show them. In my mind I set up a picture of what my new life was going to be like. I just knew that staying home was going to be so fun and I was going to be great at it! As the past 18 months have materialized, they have not been perfect and I felt like a failure every time something did not go as I imagined it. I believed all of Satan’s lies that I was a failure. I failed at being the perfect mother. I believed the lie that I was such a failure /and so unworthy for long enough that I slowly sank into depression. I lost sight of my identity as a woman, wife, mother, and Christ-follower.My behavior, anger, and disgust of myself has really taken a toll on my husband and girls. Recently, God chose to shine a light in the darkness of my “self -focused” life. He is showing me that I can never be “perfect.” I was not created to be “perfect” . I was created perfectly to worship Him and bring glory to Him. He came to bring abundant life, not just mere existence! Last night, my husband and I watched “Mom’s Night Out” for the first time. God used the movie to remind me that I am a mess but I am also His masterpiece. Thank you for sharing your story and your struggle. Thank you for letting God use you to minister to me.
Your words bring comfort to me, Heather!! I know EXACTLY what you are/did go through. I’ve faced many-a-battle with depression and it’s truly life-altering :/ I’m praying about going deeper into that issue in another post. You will be in my prayers!! And I think our family is planning on watching that movie tomorrow evening 😉
Wow, these words and images are stunning. GOOD FOR YOU! I hear you on this so so so so much— I believe I am slightly addicted to Facebook and constant affirmations. I have also considered stepping back in order to be more present with my children. You are brave for speaking these words. So much meaning and power in them.
Pamela Beckman-White
on September 12, 2014 at 8:03 pm
Good luck on your journey. God works in all good ways so I am sure he has something better in store for you. May you go forward with God’s blessings and I know he will lead you on the path he intended for you all along. Your work is beautiful.
🙂 hey Jacq. I appreciate your vulnerability. I commend you for your obedience in this. I guess I know how it is to be in the ‘other side’ of this technology frustration. Wishing others could be all there. I guess I’ve had to learn that I don’t need their interaction/presence in every moment to be okay. That God is enough. Well, I do miss you. And this grabbed my attention because it reeks of real. Maybe it’s inspired. I hesitated to comment because your affirmation and constant love and adoration do come from God. And I don’t you to miss the wholeness he brings. I will be praying for you, friend.
Jacqueline,
I just read your post and while I’m selfishly going to be missing our interactions, I will absolutely pray for you and lift you up. I commend your bravery as I know a lot of people who have struggled with this. I myself had to decide how much time and effort I am willing to spend on submitting, prepping, etc., and I know it’s so easy to get sucked into too much. I pray that your journey will be like mine and that you’ll find the balance and achieve the one greatest gift God shed light on through this entire process… that I’m creating for ME and for my family. I am able to provide for them and I’m also able to do that from home and it’s a huge blessing.
When we are passionate about something, it can definitely become a more powerful driving force than we want it to. I see a lot pf people doing this and I do wonder how they’re keeping p w/ family, friends, etc., but I try not to judge. All I know is that I pray every day that God uses me the way I was created for and although I fail daily, I feel good about where I am, so I will absolutely pray the same for you! You are a beautiful, talented, passionate woman and I love the verse from Ecclesiastes because it’s so true. Your hiatus may just be a season as well until you get it figured out. if that is the case, I know your friends will be waiting with open arms. if not, I still thank God for bringing you to our lives for the short amount of time as I’ve been inspired by you! Love and hugs,
Jessica
Love you, girl!
I have been a stay-at-home mom for the past 18 months. As I left my great career, I was so excited to be able to stay home with my 3 girls and I had so many awesome things I was planning to teach and show them. In my mind I set up a picture of what my new life was going to be like. I just knew that staying home was going to be so fun and I was going to be great at it! As the past 18 months have materialized, they have not been perfect and I felt like a failure every time something did not go as I imagined it. I believed all of Satan’s lies that I was a failure. I failed at being the perfect mother. I believed the lie that I was such a failure /and so unworthy for long enough that I slowly sank into depression. I lost sight of my identity as a woman, wife, mother, and Christ-follower.My behavior, anger, and disgust of myself has really taken a toll on my husband and girls. Recently, God chose to shine a light in the darkness of my “self -focused” life. He is showing me that I can never be “perfect.” I was not created to be “perfect” . I was created perfectly to worship Him and bring glory to Him. He came to bring abundant life, not just mere existence! Last night, my husband and I watched “Mom’s Night Out” for the first time. God used the movie to remind me that I am a mess but I am also His masterpiece. Thank you for sharing your story and your struggle. Thank you for letting God use you to minister to me.
Your words bring comfort to me, Heather!! I know EXACTLY what you are/did go through. I’ve faced many-a-battle with depression and it’s truly life-altering :/ I’m praying about going deeper into that issue in another post. You will be in my prayers!! And I think our family is planning on watching that movie tomorrow evening 😉
Wow, these words and images are stunning. GOOD FOR YOU! I hear you on this so so so so much— I believe I am slightly addicted to Facebook and constant affirmations. I have also considered stepping back in order to be more present with my children. You are brave for speaking these words. So much meaning and power in them.
Lots of love and hugs lady!
I’m so glad it spoke to you, Sarah! Just know you’re NOT alone.
Good luck on your journey. God works in all good ways so I am sure he has something better in store for you. May you go forward with God’s blessings and I know he will lead you on the path he intended for you all along. Your work is beautiful.
Thank you, Pamela 🙂
🙂 hey Jacq. I appreciate your vulnerability. I commend you for your obedience in this. I guess I know how it is to be in the ‘other side’ of this technology frustration. Wishing others could be all there. I guess I’ve had to learn that I don’t need their interaction/presence in every moment to be okay. That God is enough. Well, I do miss you. And this grabbed my attention because it reeks of real. Maybe it’s inspired. I hesitated to comment because your affirmation and constant love and adoration do come from God. And I don’t you to miss the wholeness he brings. I will be praying for you, friend.
Love you, Staci!